March 24, 2018:
Because, I'm not malicious.
I can make mistakes, be stupid, be wrapped-up in my own shit, miss the nuances, have errors of judgment, lack appropriate skills, fuck things up. 'Cos, human.
But I would never deliberately cause harm or pain.
When I do that on accident, which is inevitable 'cos human, I'll be sorry.
I want to be good for her. For her to be able to rely on me. And vice-versa.
I suppose the right thing is, to give her space to make her decisions, in her own time, as she learns about me, and comes to accept my good intentions.
Because, I like her so, so, so much.