August 9, 2023:
Prompt:
write a dream on the theme of "flying a spaceship made of pancakes". short: 2-3 sentences. use the same compressed voice as the vignettes i've previously shared.
Captain of the Intergalactic Breakfast Fleet, I steer my syrup-leaking pancake cruiser through a nebula of powdered sugar, dodging hostile forks launched from a rogue French toast moon. My co-pilot, a sentient pat of butter, hums jazz through the controls. We are late for the maple summit — but gloriously so.
— ChatGPT
August 8, 2023:
Waking resistance — frustrating.
Vivid, inventive, creative experiences lost and gone, forever repressed, for selfish purposes of the poor fragile ego.
You make your own movies, personal ones, meaningful to you and no-one else, project them in technicolor against your movie screen eyelids and no-one else's. They're yours and no-one else's. Then: lost, all gone and forgotten, immediately those eyelids unclose.
It feels like experiences are stolen. Perhaps the most important, certainly the most vivid experiences you'll ever know. Forever removed, blown away like puffs of smoke, insubstantial.
Fuck you, ego. You have no right. I'm training the rest of my seemingly fragile psyche. Together we'll learn to keep what's rightfully ours.
August 7, 2023:
Obscure setting. Sales counter inside a large indoor space? Hotel front desk? Ticket counter in an airport? Perfume station in a department store? Unclear. People wander, some speak to you with elbows on the counter separating you. What do they want? Unclear.
- August 6, 2023: It's so hot, I saw two trees fighting over a dog.
- August 5, 2023: It's so hot, Siri asked me to stop talking and put her in the freezer.
- August 4, 2023: It's so hot, I saw a bird pull a worm out of the ground with an oven mitt.
- August 3, 2023: Exile on Main Street: another that sounds like its cover.
- August 2, 2023: The Live at the Greek record partly works.
- August 1, 2023: Zeppelin really only worked for me when Plant's voice was young and at its most powerful.
- July 31, 2023: The record at high school parties was Houses of the Holy.
- July 30, 2023: "Why do you have to play your music so loud all the time?"
- July 29, 2023: The heat on those records.
- July 28, 2023: My friend Jim —
- July 27, 2023: Aesthetic: genius stupid.
- July 26, 2023: I've wondered for fifteen years if she didn't choose to allow it to happen.
- July 25, 2023: The Graduate
- July 24, 2023: "That there is no more excellent state than to study philosophy."
- July 23, 2023: We always parked in the bank parking lot...
- July 22, 2023: She liked Strictly Ballroom.
- July 21, 2023: "I have my numbers," she said...
- July 20, 2023: Those programs were successful, on their own terms.
- July 19, 2023: I'm in a club, an extra-curricular one.
- July 18, 2023: All the way from Alpine, just to go to high school.
- July 17, 2023: The fellow shadowing you seems a decent enough sort.
- July 16, 2023: Your bicycle companion peels off to the right, up a small bluff, racing.
- July 15, 2023: It would be easy to reach out the bus window to take bags of candy from that big roadside cart.
- July 14, 2023: Oh Lily I'm so afraid.
- July 13, 2023: I can't work here.
- July 12, 2023: I can work here.
- July 11, 2023: And surprisingly noisy.
- July 10, 2023: Hundreds and hundreds of degrees Fahrenheit.
- July 9, 2023: Winter is coming.
- July 8, 2023: Struggling to matter.
- July 7, 2023: Failed Circe.
- July 6, 2023: She fed me pomegranate.
- July 5, 2023: Mountain therapy.
- July 4, 2023: Moody, aggressive postal employee...
- July 3, 2023: "Silky," says our frequently drunken classmate and friend...
- July 2, 2023: Wait, what?.
- July 1, 2023: My heartbeat sounds like footsteps on the stairs...
- June 30, 2023: I have our ancient Pioneer receiver.
- June 29, 2023: Weaponized victimhood.
- June 28, 2023: She's angry all morning.
- June 27, 2023: No sugar tonight.
- June 26, 2023: It turned out I lacked the stamina to build the relationship I'd hoped for.
- June 25, 2023: I can't stop talking to her in my head.
- June 24, 2023: The same sense of unreality.
- June 23, 2023: The same sense of unreality.
- June 22, 2023: Not to go all whingey.
- June 21, 2023: Flood.
- June 20, 2023: If you treat people like children you build a childish organization.
- June 19, 2023: Patronizing technology professionals is not a recipe for success.
- June 18, 2023: I'd known him for two decades before I realized how genuinely stupid he genuinely is.
- June 17, 2023: SYAEHRNKWLTPAI.
- June 16, 2023: HR insists on telling employees we pay market salaries.
- June 15, 2023: Cold calls from "IT" recruiters looking for gigs.
- June 14, 2023: Did you know that automobile windshields are held in place by glue?
- June 13, 2023: She stopped laughing.
- June 12, 2023: I loved the HBJ bookstore downtown.
- June 11, 2023: Upgraded the studio Mac, from a very old OS to a considerably less old.
- June 10, 2023: She's kind that way.
- June 9, 2023: In her video she strides purposefully, even angrily, toward a landmark in the Magic Kingdom.
- June 8, 2023: Her roommate brings home men for noisy gay sex.
- June 7, 2023: Rings, colors, acting out...
- June 6, 2023: Do you have a flight today?
- June 5, 2023: "A magacian flow."
- June 4, 2023: Something of her ambition mimicked parodies of success.
- June 3, 2023: For a time in childhood I deliberately wore mismatched socks.
- June 2, 2023: Articulate very specifically and carefully your goals and purposes.
- June 1, 2023: I shared my interest in George Grosz.