March 10, 2008:

Why do I miss her in the Fall?

Not from association with positive experiences.

I'll tell you of one Libran experience we shared. It was the night of my birthday, I'd flown across a continent to see her. She left me alone in a motel room, waiting up, all night, while back at the band's hotel she had sex with the musician she was infatuated with.

Why do I miss her at all?