August 28, 2011:
Once upon a time there was a very beautiful girl who went to ruin, it seemed to me, by trying too hard to be accepted within a circle of peers whose definition of cool was different from what she'd known. Smoking, striking poses, bars, ego sex. Desperation to be accepted.
Years later there was a second beautiful girl who went to ruin in a strikingly similar way. The first with students, the second with music industry peripherals, but the pattern was identical.
I felt personally betrayed by their shared evolution, because they turned into people I'd chosen to reject.
Well - and of course - because they were my girlfriends.
Obvious question. What the fuck is it with me that destroys these wonderful women?