June 29, 2016:

My new psychiatrist is charming, tiny, Romanian: she has the squeaky little cartoon voice of a benign Dracula.

I came prepared to arm-wrestle. My research set me firmly against SSRIs, the most common solution. Side effects: sluggishness, loss of libido, lack of energy. I was determined to seek brupropion: a dopamine system agent. That or nothing.

She was already there. "With your symptoms, that would have been my recommendation." Squeaky little cartoon Dracula voice, smiling.

I like her. She carefully and repeatedly instructs me in dosage, timing, side effects to watch out for. "I hope you feel better soon," she said, shaking hands, pointing me to the waiting room.