April 28, 2018:

She texted, "i spent new years alone in the dark because i didnt want to get involved with anyone whose life i could make worse next year."

I can feel compassion for her loneliness.

I can also feel bitterness at her hypocrisy.

The previous year I'd spent New Years alone in the dark, because she'd refused to spend it with me.

My "life partner".

That one with lots of other life partners.

So that my anger suggests: Fuck her, and the depression she rode in on.