October 15, 2019:

Shining Blonde on the Hill, the girl who loved to wrestle and lose.

I longed for her through so much pain, then when the moment came was in so much pain I forgot our date, so that she spent an entire lunchtime waiting on a street corner for the fool who never came.

In summers I rode my bike to sunny places to write her letters in appropriate atmospheres. Mission Bay Park most days. Or Ocean Beach Pier.

In Greece she was the only sun all winter. Half the world away and vibrant in my imagination.

Third parties said she said: "I had such a crush on him..."

Send me back, send me back, send me back oh Lord.