January 17, 2020:

Then they turn ugly, those pictures.

Pony tail, paunch, glasses, tubby cheeks, false smile.
Depression: aftermath of breakdown.
Unmistakable: not in happy shape.

Lonely, isolated, exiled, financially struggling,
without peers or support,
thrust into contexts which are incompetent wastes of exorbitant energies.
Broken-hearted, resigned, to loneliness the rest of his life.

It shows.

Life will require three decades before therapy and medication arrive on white chargers, saying, Turn this mess around..."